My heart goes out to you. I so know how you feel. One thing you can feel blessed about though is that you have discovered this path so early. I always knew there was something else that was meant for me, but wasn't sure what it was. Since the moment I ready my first book on Wicca, I haven't been able to get enough of it. I feel like I could live and breathe it. Everything about it brings joy and peace to my heart and soul. I can't get enough. Several times I have felt like deleting my coven space because even after 8 years or so of reading, I feel like I just don't know enough and everyone else knows SO MUCH! But I have made myself sleep on it every time, and have been so glad. I even wanted to delete the blog that led you to be my friend. Had I deleted it, I would have never had the chance to start getting to know you, and the other wonderful friends that I have made here.

I understand your need to want to be around people who feel the way that you do. I will probably be sitting here on Beltane alone too, burning a candle and some incense. Maybe we can get a solitary ritual from some of the wonderful folks here that we can do (something that your dad won't notice), and we can celebrate together in spirit. :)

Blessed Be my brother. And try to be patient.

xoxoxoxo

Your God and Goddess are there with you right now, or you would not even feel a connection to your path }B-) Keep your head up, be proud that you know who you are and where your path lies at such a young age. As for the celebration, celebration of the heart is the most important one to remember and be a part of. I too will be celebrating Beltane on my own. If you can get the chance, try to find some alone time to celebrate. Even if it's just the lighting of a candle and a silent whisper, or just a five minute basking in the sun to celebrate, the Gods and Goddesses are about intention, not semantics.

Blessed be,

You don't need other to celebrate or be close to the Gods. You can always go hiking!

Solitary ritual I created last year.

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:( that sux! i'm sorry. have you been on witchvox? they usually have a listing of stuff going around in your area. maybe you could find a festival or gather that you could attend. here's the site if you haven't been on it: witchvox.com/ it's pretty cool if you are looking to meet people or go to things around you. :) (((hugs)))~